Thursday, December 3, 2009

Uncertainty and Clarification...

Lately I've been getting tired of going to school. Tired of waking up, at 7:00 every other day, after less than 8 hrs of sleep, and dragging myself to math class. And then sitting in school for the whole day until 2:20, and then sitting outside for at least 15 minutes waiting for my mom, even though we live less than 5 minutes away. Sometimes I just don't want to get out of bed, but then I remind myself that my parents paid for my education and I need to go to school. I think this has taught me not to pick classes at 8:30 in the morning when your definitely not a morning person. I'll know for next semester to build my school schedule around my sleep schedule. And no more night classes. I love English, but if I have to take another night class after spending the whole day in school, I think I might scream.
As I get closer to transferring (which won't be for a while since this is my first semester) I start to think that I might not want to transfer. On the one hand, I need to transfer. On the other hand if I don't want to. I don't hate school I just don't like the work, which is bad because school is work. But I guess I'll I just have to suck it up and do it, and when I finish, I finish.
I'm trying to enjoy my time at school, without a job, because things can change and you never know what might happen over the next few days, months or years. I have a friend that works, goes to school full time, takes care of family, does extra work at church and still finds time for her close friends. I would never be able to do that, I would fall apart, but that could be me in the next year or so. (I hope not, haha) it's kinda bad, but I look at that and tell myself to be happy with the place I'm in right now. I don't have to work, (at a job at least) and my schedule is not jam packed with things. Even though I don't like work I have to get used to it and become better at doing it on time and to the best of my ability.

Any one out there stressed or not sure about something at school? Please comment and share your story.

1 comment:

  1. Everybody goes through not wanting to go to school, but the rewards are great (not working at MacDonald's for the rest of your life for one). It teaches you so much about life. And you are blessed your situation is good right now, and will change on down the road. I hope you find what you want to do as a career and are happy.

    Plus if your parents are paying for it go ahead and do it. My husband got his Associates 20 years ago and then it took him another 18 years before he went back and finished the Bachelor's he wishes he had finished sooner because now, career wise he is paying for it.

    take care

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